Put away your silly little fairy-tales
They are filled with nought but romance and lies
I waded through all the trials of this world
I'm haunted by so many now closed eyes
My armour was never really shining
It was coated in rust and caked in mud
How easily your romanticism overlooked
The way my hands were drenched in blood
My once gleaming sword was too often drawn
I tried not to show you a single flaw
All of you seem to cry out for a Hero
Do you even know what you wanted me for?
It is for all of you I went through all of this
It was my fate to walk a path through Hell
I counselled you when you had need
I listened to secrets I swore never
My Father left my Mother
before I was even born
So when I came into this world
it was into a family torn
Yet in all the years from now to then
it never seemed broken to me
Because I always had you and Mum
I had a fantastic family
When I was a baby you played with me
When I was little you were there
and When Mum had to go back to work
I was always left in your care
you took me out and bought me sweets
helped me with my education
You cooked my meals and read to me
helped lay my life's foundations
You were always there for me
always constant and true
When so many others let me down
I could always count on Mum and you
So many holidays and d
Wind howls outside the window
rain hammers down from on high
I stare out into that dark, wild night
and a tear escapes my eye
I feel the cold so keenly
and yet I stand here in the warm
my body safe inside a house
my heart raging with the storm
I know I made a terrible mistake
when I stood aside and let you leave
I don't know why I didn't tell you
what I thought it would achieve
I should've put my arms around you
and never let you go away
Should've told you this is where you belong
I should have made you stay
Now I know how selfish it may seem
but I wish you could just come back
I wish I could have a second chance
to get it back on track
Sweet Little Lies by goblinsliveinmytrous, literature
Literature
Sweet Little Lies
The worst lies you will ever tell
are the ones that you tell to yourself
such as pretending feelings will go away
that you can put them away on a shelf
you tell yourself you don't need them
that you don't need anyone ever again
You tell yourself you're better off alone
but when you're cold at night what then?
Can I walk alone in a sea of couples
trusting that the fates have a plan?
trusting that one day it'll all just work out?
I really don't know if I can
Yet still I walk this path alone
and tell myself it's what I wanted
whilst I cherish the memories of better times
happy memories that leave me haunted
most of all I try and ignore the a
Dreams of Ill Omen 7... Nightmare Country by goblinsliveinmytrous, literature
Literature
Dreams of Ill Omen 7... Nightmare Country
Thoughts go round and round
spinning like some cursed carrousel
Cannot sleep for the noise inside
all the secrets I cannot tell....
Hidden dreams and forgotten hopes
paths I was too scared to walk
fallen comrades and forgotten friends
monsters that from the shadows stalk
Taunting me with battles lost
all my failures all my fears
playing through the greatest hits
of every event that ended in tears
So many scenarios to play out
I've died a thousand times and worse
I've watched those I care for leave one by one
and I see no end to my nightly curse
A prickle of fear when my head touches pillow
what new torment awaits tonight
sleep takes hold
yet again I dared to hope
worse still I dared to trust
now here I am looking the fool
and all I feel is disgust...
I wonder if i'll ever really learn
the hopeless should steer clear of hope
that way when everything crumbles to dust
you're better prepared to cope
Every chapter must draw to a close
even the ones that you love most
time transforms them to memory
I am left haunted by bittersweet ghosts
I tell myself it's all for the best
and that there's nothing I can do
flick away a tear and dust myself down
telling myself i'll make it through
No time to wallow or whinge
I long since forgot how to cry
once more I put on my game face
and get
I really wish that I could say
with any kind of real conviction
that my heart doesn't feel empty
since love's erstwhile eviction
I wish I didn't miss the feeling
of just knowing that someone's there
Someone you're free to worship and adore
someone you know will always care
I wish i could turn it off like a tap
make a decision and forever be free
never again give dating a second thought
be content with just my own company
as it is I am resigned to my fate
to always dream yet still lose sleep
to always watch from outside in the cold
to always sow yet never reap
It's true i cannot forsee the future
and maybe happier times will follow
perhaps
I have tried to give up on cheesy lines and romance
Though I try I think I'll never succeed
And I know that no words can change anything
I have no real case left to plead
All I know is I care for you more than I should
Certainly more than just a friend
I have never regretted time spent with you
and it makes me sad to think it might come to an end
I like the cute little smile you wear
right before you give me shit
For some stupid statement that came out wrong
I honestly never get tired of it
I will take any excuse to spend time with you
although people tell me they think i'm mad
Is it really madness when days out with you
are some of the be
A Matter of Perspective by goblinsliveinmytrous, literature
Literature
A Matter of Perspective
Almost a year ago as I write
I made a decision that changed my life
plunged all I knew into chaos
and began 12 months of pain and strife
Since then all i've done is damage control
doing all I can to make amends
trying to look strong whilst feeling my weakest
hoping I came out of it still having friends
I had fallen so very far
and lost a hell of a lot along the way
which made it more rewarding to claw my way up
Out of the dark into the light of day
I know I should probably cut my losses
instead of risking all I worked for
but I can't turn a blind eye to the simple truth
the possibility exists for a perfect score
So once more into the bre
Put away your silly little fairy-tales
They are filled with nought but romance and lies
I waded through all the trials of this world
I'm haunted by so many now closed eyes
My armour was never really shining
It was coated in rust and caked in mud
How easily your romanticism overlooked
The way my hands were drenched in blood
My once gleaming sword was too often drawn
I tried not to show you a single flaw
All of you seem to cry out for a Hero
Do you even know what you wanted me for?
It is for all of you I went through all of this
It was my fate to walk a path through Hell
I counselled you when you had need
I listened to secrets I swore never
My Father left my Mother
before I was even born
So when I came into this world
it was into a family torn
Yet in all the years from now to then
it never seemed broken to me
Because I always had you and Mum
I had a fantastic family
When I was a baby you played with me
When I was little you were there
and When Mum had to go back to work
I was always left in your care
you took me out and bought me sweets
helped me with my education
You cooked my meals and read to me
helped lay my life's foundations
You were always there for me
always constant and true
When so many others let me down
I could always count on Mum and you
So many holidays and d
Wind howls outside the window
rain hammers down from on high
I stare out into that dark, wild night
and a tear escapes my eye
I feel the cold so keenly
and yet I stand here in the warm
my body safe inside a house
my heart raging with the storm
I know I made a terrible mistake
when I stood aside and let you leave
I don't know why I didn't tell you
what I thought it would achieve
I should've put my arms around you
and never let you go away
Should've told you this is where you belong
I should have made you stay
Now I know how selfish it may seem
but I wish you could just come back
I wish I could have a second chance
to get it back on track
Sweet Little Lies by goblinsliveinmytrous, literature
Literature
Sweet Little Lies
The worst lies you will ever tell
are the ones that you tell to yourself
such as pretending feelings will go away
that you can put them away on a shelf
you tell yourself you don't need them
that you don't need anyone ever again
You tell yourself you're better off alone
but when you're cold at night what then?
Can I walk alone in a sea of couples
trusting that the fates have a plan?
trusting that one day it'll all just work out?
I really don't know if I can
Yet still I walk this path alone
and tell myself it's what I wanted
whilst I cherish the memories of better times
happy memories that leave me haunted
most of all I try and ignore the a
Dreams of Ill Omen 7... Nightmare Country by goblinsliveinmytrous, literature
Literature
Dreams of Ill Omen 7... Nightmare Country
Thoughts go round and round
spinning like some cursed carrousel
Cannot sleep for the noise inside
all the secrets I cannot tell....
Hidden dreams and forgotten hopes
paths I was too scared to walk
fallen comrades and forgotten friends
monsters that from the shadows stalk
Taunting me with battles lost
all my failures all my fears
playing through the greatest hits
of every event that ended in tears
So many scenarios to play out
I've died a thousand times and worse
I've watched those I care for leave one by one
and I see no end to my nightly curse
A prickle of fear when my head touches pillow
what new torment awaits tonight
sleep takes hold
yet again I dared to hope
worse still I dared to trust
now here I am looking the fool
and all I feel is disgust...
I wonder if i'll ever really learn
the hopeless should steer clear of hope
that way when everything crumbles to dust
you're better prepared to cope
Every chapter must draw to a close
even the ones that you love most
time transforms them to memory
I am left haunted by bittersweet ghosts
I tell myself it's all for the best
and that there's nothing I can do
flick away a tear and dust myself down
telling myself i'll make it through
No time to wallow or whinge
I long since forgot how to cry
once more I put on my game face
and get
I really wish that I could say
with any kind of real conviction
that my heart doesn't feel empty
since love's erstwhile eviction
I wish I didn't miss the feeling
of just knowing that someone's there
Someone you're free to worship and adore
someone you know will always care
I wish i could turn it off like a tap
make a decision and forever be free
never again give dating a second thought
be content with just my own company
as it is I am resigned to my fate
to always dream yet still lose sleep
to always watch from outside in the cold
to always sow yet never reap
It's true i cannot forsee the future
and maybe happier times will follow
perhaps
I have tried to give up on cheesy lines and romance
Though I try I think I'll never succeed
And I know that no words can change anything
I have no real case left to plead
All I know is I care for you more than I should
Certainly more than just a friend
I have never regretted time spent with you
and it makes me sad to think it might come to an end
I like the cute little smile you wear
right before you give me shit
For some stupid statement that came out wrong
I honestly never get tired of it
I will take any excuse to spend time with you
although people tell me they think i'm mad
Is it really madness when days out with you
are some of the be
A Matter of Perspective by goblinsliveinmytrous, literature
Literature
A Matter of Perspective
Almost a year ago as I write
I made a decision that changed my life
plunged all I knew into chaos
and began 12 months of pain and strife
Since then all i've done is damage control
doing all I can to make amends
trying to look strong whilst feeling my weakest
hoping I came out of it still having friends
I had fallen so very far
and lost a hell of a lot along the way
which made it more rewarding to claw my way up
Out of the dark into the light of day
I know I should probably cut my losses
instead of risking all I worked for
but I can't turn a blind eye to the simple truth
the possibility exists for a perfect score
So once more into the bre
You know how you cant help but smile
When you see him for the first time that day?
And when the day couldnt get any worse
But it seems to become better straight away?
Does your heart flutter slightly?
When you see how great he looks today
And how you suppress the urge to hug him
Or kiss him whilst he works, doing things his way?
Do you remember what it feels like to be held?
So tight, you know he doesn't want to let go
How every moment of time is precious?
And how proud he is when he puts you on show?
Can you recall how many times you shiver?
Is it every time you kiss?
And the pain you have to endure
Because he
My Father left my Mother
before I was even born
So when I came into this world
it was into a family torn
Yet in all the years from now to then
it never seemed broken to me
Because I always had you and Mum
I had a fantastic family
When I was a baby you played with me
When I was little you were there
and When Mum had to go back to work
I was always left in your care
you took me out and bought me sweets
helped me with my education
You cooked my meals and read to me
helped lay my life's foundations
You were always there for me
always constant and true
When so many others let me down
I could always count on Mum and you
So many holidays and d
Basically I started watching Pokemon again and this has put me in an up-beat and cheerful mood :D
Hopefully gonna get down to some more cheerful writing too So watch this space :)
I am at a point when my life is not so great. I feel ungrateful. Plenty of people wish for nothing more than the sort of life I have. I wish that it was enough.
New poem to upload shortly.
Don't expect anything too cheerful for a while guys...